I promised my best friend I wouldn't cut anymore...
I think that was the dumbest decision I've ever made. I hope I can keep it. He was too worried about me, like getting better and stuff...I'm scared I still wont get better even though I wont cut...I just wanted him to talk to me. about what was going on with him. I'm in love with my best friend. One problem. He has a girlfriend, while at the same time admitting that he has liked me since we had a "thing" that I broke off 3 years ago. Now, when I like him again ( idk if I ever really stopped) he has a girlfriend. He said that he wont break up with her. Which is ok. I want him to be happy. If that means watching him be in love with another girl...Then that's fine. It kills me. But I just want him to be happy..Is that so wrong?
I had been eating again...But, with all of this stress I can't eat. So, I'm afraid it will take me back into a relapse. Hey, if it gets the extra couple pounds I've gained off...Then that's ok...I don't know what I'm going to do...I have been so tempted to cut...I can't now...I'm so stupid
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